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  You may have questions...."why the heck am I reading this??" "Is this relevant to my life or any life for that matter?"  "What is with that first picture on the first post?"  and probably more.   The first picture chosen for the first post is an insight in to my rebellion to the conventional life I had.  A life I thought I wanted.  It is two fold in that it is a direct rebellion against my mom (whom I love dearly BTW but I have spent WAY to much of my life trying to please her, or at least not have to hear her disappointment at anything I have done in my life) and rebellion against the notions of what my husband thinks of as a proper Christian wife and mom. HONESTLY, is it actually rebellion when you are 52 years old and what you are doing isn't against the law? Probably not.  I lived in a very proper household (Catholic) growing up.  There are things we didn't do and I've always been the child/adult who toed the line.  Trust me, my brother i
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I’m trying desperately to find myself as I’ve been lost for so long

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 At some point in time and I'm not really sure when, I lost myself.  I have spent so much of my life trying to please others: my parents, employers, teachers or professors, my husband and even my children some.  I've walked a line for so long to not disappoint those around me that I cannot figure out who I am. Add to this the fact that my body seems to have decided that it hates itself.  I do not know what to do any more. Add to this again that the older I get the less I like pleasing everyone else, and I do not think I should have to.   I am inviting you to join me on this journey of finding myself again.  Of losing those things that I have taken on to please others.  Of hopefully finding my health again because of all that I have lost my health is something I miss the most.  I have no earthly idea of what will happen at this point and for a while most of my posts are going to be just me coming to terms with what has been going on all these years. Taking a look at the good, th
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