WORKS in PROGRESS


 Works in Progress


It has been a minute since I posted. In my defense, I've been incredibly busy.  I've been in school and working. Probably a lot more than I ever intended but to be honest. I am loving it.  I have a new job and have decided to not enter the medical field. It was killing me.  I had made it to the very last class before I could test and apply for the X-ray Tech program.  Realizing that I had just about achieved my goal, the next step was one that I may never get the chance to even do.  I could apply and never get in because the program gets 75+ applicants (qualified) yearly but only 16 get in by lottery. They do not replace dropouts. At 50 years old I was like - if I don't get in what do I do?  I never came up with a great answer, so I switched gears and went into the Paralegal program. I love it.  I love what I do and am learning a ton every single day.  I couldn't have told you what a FOIA request or an IPRA is at the beginning, now I can do one with ease (sort of). I'm writing discovery supplements, deposition questions, Tort Claim Notices, and scheduling mediations. Filing Medical Record requests and more.  Every day brings something new, and it is exciting to be part of a team that develops a case from start to finish. Sometimes it is frustrating and a little scary but I cannot believe how much I've learned.  Most days however, there aren't enough hours in the day!!!

Like me, my garden is a work in progress, it is changing and evolving. It is so much hard work but at the same time, it is my happy place.  It is where I go to find peace and beauty and where I go to work out frustrations and find my sanity. It is a place that I can create a work of art that lives and nourishes not only me but many of the critters around me.  One of my goals is to put in as many pollinator magnets as I can out in the garden. I am seeing happy bees buzzing around the herb bed. Hummingbirds fighting over the blooms on the trumpet vine that is trying to take over the garden and butterflies more numerous that I've ever seen and most of the flowers haven't even started blooming yet!  I am imagining what it will look like in a month or two, and even next year when the perennials are established and blooming like crazy.  

Every chance I get I am out there dreaming about the next step in the project or what to plant where.  I wish there were more cool hours in the day where I could work more and plant more and grown more.  I feel like I am not only taking back my garden one bit at a time but I am finding myself again in the process. I am healing and feeling more sane every time I work out there. 

It is also the place where I feel closest to my dad.  I miss him so much and hope he is looking down on my garden and is guiding my steps through this process. 

#Garden, #Healingjourney, #Pollinators

 

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